So I want to share with you guys a journey that I have been on for a while. I am doing it because I just experienced a breakthrough and I want to be able to share what I am learning in hopes that you can benefit from it. I know I am not alone in this journey.
So, for the last 10 years I have been struggling with hormonal migraines. Any of you in the same boat? I've tried lavender scented tea and candles, caffeinated beverages of all kinds, pain killers, cold/hot showers, sleeping, drinking lots of water, gluten free diets, progesterone cream, massages, days off, you name it. All in an attempt to ease the pulsing in my head, the foggy thoughts, and the feeling like I am pregnant, but clearly am not. It is kinda consuming and I feel overly obsessed about it. Which leads me to something I didn't realize had anything to do with my prayer life. God is funny like that no? He just knows our deepest desires.
I have been writing my prayers out in a journal. I shared a while back about how I am easily affected by my feelings, how I need constant visual reminders that God and I did in fact talk. One such prayer that I always write, is that God will protect my marriage and our home. It is a weighted and powerful request. I don't really pray that He will keep the thieves out. I pray more for His power to keep the evil spirits out. One such way that I know they try to come in, is through my mind. It can think some of the most ridiculous things that have the potential to destroy our home. God has granted my request each and every time I ask. I speak less fighting words when I do. In turn I feel even closer to my husband, Chris. It's pretty legit. The kind that binds for good.
While God has been doing His thing, making me a little more pleasant to be around, He has been creating this other desire in my heart. Because of my migraines, I can't always be available. Sometimes it just makes me cranky. Other times I have a hard time processing information and getting work done. So when my friend, Hillary, asked if I would participate in a survey for a natural remedy course that she is taking, I jumped at it. I wanted in on getting better! When she got back to me, asking a few more questions about my symptoms and concerns, she said I should look up "estrogen dominance" and check back with her. You guys, you have no idea how happy I was to discover that this is a thing! I do most of my searches on Pinterest and BAM. The results were in. Well sort of.
I have to go through some major changes in order to rid myself of the excessive amount of estrogen in my body. Once I do that I have to reevaluate and take some blood work. I am nervous and glad at the same time. For so long I have struggled with mild depression, anxiety, and fatigue. I want to be able to offer more to my community, this ministry, as well as my home. And I don't just want to keep these new developments to myself! I want to share the secrets to a whole life. At least in this situation. If I discover other beautiful healing things, I won't hold back.
You know that verse that talks about protecting the gate to your heart? My neurobiology professor in college called the thalamus the gateway to the brain. Today, this gate is being strengthened. I am thankful.
Above all else, guard your heart for everything you do flows from it. - Proverbs 4:23